As I sit in the living room, thinking about the past week and all that has happened…just little things along the way…

Aleks and I have our little talks together at night. One of the questions was about brothers and sisters. We talked about him having two sisters now. And how he really likes that and how fun it is. But then there was a long pause…he asked me why I didn’t have any more children. Here is what he said “just Kristen and Rachel, why not more?” Well, with a long pause, I said, “I was given you, God waited and put you in my life, now. God has given me three really cool children.” It was quiet….and we both were content.

Sunday, we were with friends for lunch after church. Talking and having fun…and Shari asked me about what feelings I was having. Well, it was at that moment, tears started flowing and I couldn’t make them stop. I was asked, “what am I feeling”…and my words were, “I am afraid, I feel heavy, I don’t like the unknown.” As I looked down the table at Aleks, he saw I was crying. He jumped up to check on me. He made sure I was okay and did not want me to be afraid of going to Latvia.

Today, two verses were given to me:

Deuteronomy 31:6-8
“Be strong. Take courage. Don’t be intimidated. Don’t give them a second thought because God, your God, is striding ahead of you. He’s right there with you. He won’t let you down; he won’t leave you.”Then Moses summoned Joshua. He said to him with all Israel watching, “Be strong. Take courage. You will enter the land with this people, this land that God promised their ancestors that he’d give them. You will make them the proud possessors of it. God is striding ahead of you. He’s right there with you. He won’t let you down; he won’t leave you. Don’t be intimidated. Don’t worry.”

Isaiah 41:10
Don’t panic. I’m with you.
There’s no need to fear for I’m your God.
I’ll give you strength. I’ll help you.
I’ll hold you steady, keep a firm grip on you.

HMMMMMM…….think God is telling me something?